Today is the first day of the year and I’m scared because I want this weight loss to be successful. I want to be able to face my fears and have the discipline and focus to accomplish this goal like I have other goals in my life and career. I’m still not sure why I’ve struggled and that’s part of what scares me. It’s like an unknown entity that is a part of me that comes out when I’m most vulnerable and knocks me down. In the past it’s taken me time to get back on my feet and try again.
I don’t want to waste more time and I know that this weight loss is possible. Just look at other people who have done what I’m trying to do, are they smarter, stronger? No they had a plan and stuck with it. That’s my theory at least.
Ten days—I have committed to myself to stay focused and committed for the duration. But 10 day chunks, that’s my short term goal. Today is day one.
Prayer: God, help me get through today.